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I miss Spain.

Late night insomnia

I really can't sleep lately. I've been stressed for approximately a month now. I don't know what to do.

I can't help but think it has something to do with my living arrangements. I never really had time to settle in and make my room my own. I'm not super happy with the layout... I miss grant street. It wasn't the best house, but it was a good one, and it felt like a home. This feels like four walls with a roof I can sleep under.

I just need to feel like I belong somewhere I think.

I'm slowly realizing that I might not want to be a teacher and that's what I've spent the last four years of my life studying to be.

In 2010 I had the crazy notion that I could teach english in spain based on one person that I met, and in order to do so, I had to major in Spanish. done.

Now I'm not so sure.

I don't know what I want, and I'm starting to envy my friends that are already in their niche, whether that be with babies and husbands, or broke and misguided, or just confident in their life choices. Maybe thats what I lack, confidence.

Shocker.

Dear Life,

Send me a new message, I get that I need confidence. I just need a quiet brain now.

M




Reasons why I'm super stressed:

-- Dying aunt
-- Money for school is looking rough.
-- Two jobs
-- Room mate issues (sort of)
-- No creative/physical outlet
-- Loud ass thoughts.




Someone help me. Please. I'm losing it.